Do what makes you happy, be with who makes you smile, laugh as much as you breathe, and love as long as you live.
Remember when...
Friends didn't lie to you and the worst thing anyone ever called you was a meanie. When you were judged only by how nice you were. How you only wanted to hear "I love you." from your mom..
Well, things change.
Because now..
Friends barely tell you the truth. Girls will call you a ton of things that will make you want to breakdown and cry. Now you're judged on how expensive your clothes are and you would give up every single time your mom ever told you she loved you just to hear him say it once.
Welcome to a world where people talk about eachother and everyone lies and everyone tries to be something they're not and nobody can keep a secret and friendships that lasted forever were broken.
Yeah well, it's called LIFE.
2009-11-30
2009-11-23
Alcoholics
I just thought I would post a good definition of an alcoholic, just to make it clear to people who might not be sure on how to react to the definition or maybe don't know how to tell the difference.
Don't be ashamed. Most people don't know how to describe this unexplainable, and almost impossible to control - dangerous habit.
Alcoholism, which is also known as "alcohol dependence syndrome," is a disease that is characterized by the following elements:
Craving: A strong need, or compulsion, to drink.
Loss of control: The frequent inability to stop drinking once a person has begun.
Physical dependence: The occurrence of withdrawal symptoms, such as nausea, sweating, shakiness, and anxiety, when alcohol use is stopped after a period of heavy drinking. These symptoms are usually relieved by drinking alcohol or by taking another sedative drug.
Tolerance: The need for increasing amounts of alcohol in order to get "high."
Alcoholics Can't Just Quit
Alcoholism has little to do with what kind of alcohol one drinks, how long one has been drinking, or even exactly how much alcohol one consumes. But it has a great deal to do with a person's uncontrollable need for alcohol.
This description of alcoholism helps us understand why most alcoholics can't just "use a little willpower" to stop drinking. He or she is frequently in the grip of a powerful craving for alcohol, a need that can feel as strong as the need for food or water.
While some people are able to recover without help, the majority of alcoholic individuals need outside assistance to recover from their disease. With support and treatment, many individuals are able to stop drinking and rebuild their lives.
Many people wonder: Why can some individuals use alcohol without problems, while others are utterly unable to control their drinking? Recent research supported by NIAAA has demonstrated that for many people, a vulnerability to alcoholism is inherited.
Genetics, Environment Play a Role
Yet it is important to recognize that aspects of a person's environment, such as peer influences and the availability of alcohol, also are significant influences. Both inherited and environmental influences are called "risk factors."
But risk is not destiny. Just because alcoholism tends to run in families doesn't mean that a child of an alcoholic parent will automatically develop alcoholism.
Don't be ashamed. Most people don't know how to describe this unexplainable, and almost impossible to control - dangerous habit.
Alcoholism, which is also known as "alcohol dependence syndrome," is a disease that is characterized by the following elements:
Craving: A strong need, or compulsion, to drink.
Loss of control: The frequent inability to stop drinking once a person has begun.
Physical dependence: The occurrence of withdrawal symptoms, such as nausea, sweating, shakiness, and anxiety, when alcohol use is stopped after a period of heavy drinking. These symptoms are usually relieved by drinking alcohol or by taking another sedative drug.
Tolerance: The need for increasing amounts of alcohol in order to get "high."
Alcoholics Can't Just Quit
Alcoholism has little to do with what kind of alcohol one drinks, how long one has been drinking, or even exactly how much alcohol one consumes. But it has a great deal to do with a person's uncontrollable need for alcohol.
This description of alcoholism helps us understand why most alcoholics can't just "use a little willpower" to stop drinking. He or she is frequently in the grip of a powerful craving for alcohol, a need that can feel as strong as the need for food or water.
While some people are able to recover without help, the majority of alcoholic individuals need outside assistance to recover from their disease. With support and treatment, many individuals are able to stop drinking and rebuild their lives.
Many people wonder: Why can some individuals use alcohol without problems, while others are utterly unable to control their drinking? Recent research supported by NIAAA has demonstrated that for many people, a vulnerability to alcoholism is inherited.
Genetics, Environment Play a Role
Yet it is important to recognize that aspects of a person's environment, such as peer influences and the availability of alcohol, also are significant influences. Both inherited and environmental influences are called "risk factors."
But risk is not destiny. Just because alcoholism tends to run in families doesn't mean that a child of an alcoholic parent will automatically develop alcoholism.
Alcohol Abuse
I thought I would write about a topic that potentially would matter to some of the other bloggers around here. I know that some of you couldn't be bothered to here me ranting about anything and everything that comes to mind.
I thought about it, and it's a topic that affects me deeply, because I have experience in dealing with these...people.
I am talking about alcoholics.
More importantly, I am talking about young people, families and who is affected most by alcohol and alcohol related issues.
Young People and Alcohol
UNDERAGE DRINKING IS WIDESPREAD IN THE U.S...
More than 10 million current drinkers in the United States are between the ages of 12-20. Of these young drinkers, 20% engage in binge drinking and 6% are heavy drinkers.[1]
On average, young people begin drinking at 13.1 years of age.[2]
By the time they are high school seniors, more than 80% have used alcohol and approximately 62% have been drunk.[3]
Girls are beginning to drink at younger ages. In the 1960s, 7% of 10- to 14-year-old females used alcohol; by the early 1990's, that figure had risen to 31%.[4]
Due to heavy or binge drinking, nearly one out of every five teenagers (16%) has experienced "black outs," after which they could not remember what happened the previous evening. [5]
Young people have easy access to alcohol. In alcohol purchase attempts made by researchers across the U.S., buyers who appeared to be underage were able to purchase alcohol with no questions asked at least 50% of the time. [6]
AND THE CONSEQUENCES ARE DEVASTATING...
Alcohol is a factor in the four leading causes of death among persons ages 10 to 24: (1) motor-vehicle crashes, (2) unintentional injuries, (3) homicide, and (4) suicide. [7]
Young people who begin drinking before age 15 are four times more likely to develop alcohol dependence than those who begin drinking at age 21. [8]
More than 67% of young people who start drinking before the age of 15 will try an illicit drug. Children who drink are 7.5 times more likely to use any illicit drug, more than 22 times more likely to use marijuana, and 50 times more likely to use cocaine than children who never drank. [91
Teens under 15 who have ever consumed alcohol are twice as likely to have sex as those who have not. Nearly 4 in 10 (39%) sexually active teens who use alcohol have had sexual intercourse with four or more individuals. [10]
Underage drinking costs Americans nearly $53 billion annually. If this cost were shared equally by each congressional district, the amount would total more than $120 million per district. [11]
Researchers estimate that alcohol use is implicated in one to two-thirds of sexual assault and acquaintance or "date" rape cases among teens and college students. [12]
In 1999, 21% of 15- to 20-year-old drivers who were killed in crashes were intoxicated. [13]
Here's an article that I found on the internet about how alcohol abuse affects the family.
Link: http://addictionrecoverybasics.com/how-alcohol-abuse-affects-family/
How Alcohol Abuse Affects Family
by Bill Urell on
The effects of alcohol abuse roll over the family like waves crashing on the shore.
When someone experiences alcohol problems, the negative effects of drinking cost dearly, not only the drinker, but also on their partner and other family members.
Often alcohol abusers have a blind spot when it comes to the ravaging effects it can have on loved ones. Recent data suggest that approximately one child in every four (28.6%) in the United States is exposed to alcohol abuse or alcohol dependence in the family.
One of the clearest demonstrations of how alcohol use negatively impacts the family is the widely documented association between alcohol use and interpersonal violence. Family problems that are likely to co-occur with alcohol problems include:
1.Violence – slapping, hitting, smashing and throwing objects.
2. Marital conflict – arguments, the silent treatment, growing apart.
3. Infidelity - finding someone who ‘understands’, prostitution, internet sex.
4. Jealousy - of friends, your partner or the
5. Economic insecurity – loss of job, poor financial decisions, easting money
6. Divorce – isolation
7. Fetal alcohol effect – drinking when pregnant, brain damage to the baby.
Drinking problems may negatively alter marital and family functioning, but there also is evidence that they can increase as a consequence of marital and family problems. Therefore drinking and family functioning are strongly and reciprocally linked. Drinking increases family problems, as family problems increase, drinking increases.
A vicious cycle is formed. It is no surprise that alcohol problems are very common in couples that seek out marital therapy. And, relationship problems are common in drinkers who present for alcohol treatment
Here some more articles about alcohol abuse from around the web.
Prenatal Drinking, Environmental Enrichment: Effects On … – Prenatal alcohol exposure may be particularly destructive for neurotrophins, a family of peptides that influence the growth, development and functional plasticity of the fetal brain. A new rodent study of alcohol’s effects on three key …
Growing Up Alcoholic: The Effects of Alcohol Abuse on Children – Alcohol addiction is a very dangerous disease that not only affects the individual, but also has a direct affect on those family members who are around the addict. A great deal of parents who are dealing with stressors such as their …
The Effects Of Alcohol Consumption On Our Society (mens health care) – Alcohol is metabolized in the liver by enzymes, however, the liver can only metabolize a small amount of alcohol at a time, leaving the excess alcohol to circulate throughout the body. The intensity of the effect of alcohol on the body …
The Effects Of Alcohol In The Body – Don’t let alcoholism get to this point. Ethyl alcohol has industrial properties. The ethyl alcohol which is used in alcoholic beverages is heavily taxed. Ethyl alcohol is one of a family of alcohols, which include methyl alcohol, …
I thought about it, and it's a topic that affects me deeply, because I have experience in dealing with these...people.
I am talking about alcoholics.
More importantly, I am talking about young people, families and who is affected most by alcohol and alcohol related issues.
Young People and Alcohol
UNDERAGE DRINKING IS WIDESPREAD IN THE U.S...
More than 10 million current drinkers in the United States are between the ages of 12-20. Of these young drinkers, 20% engage in binge drinking and 6% are heavy drinkers.[1]
On average, young people begin drinking at 13.1 years of age.[2]
By the time they are high school seniors, more than 80% have used alcohol and approximately 62% have been drunk.[3]
Girls are beginning to drink at younger ages. In the 1960s, 7% of 10- to 14-year-old females used alcohol; by the early 1990's, that figure had risen to 31%.[4]
Due to heavy or binge drinking, nearly one out of every five teenagers (16%) has experienced "black outs," after which they could not remember what happened the previous evening. [5]
Young people have easy access to alcohol. In alcohol purchase attempts made by researchers across the U.S., buyers who appeared to be underage were able to purchase alcohol with no questions asked at least 50% of the time. [6]
AND THE CONSEQUENCES ARE DEVASTATING...
Alcohol is a factor in the four leading causes of death among persons ages 10 to 24: (1) motor-vehicle crashes, (2) unintentional injuries, (3) homicide, and (4) suicide. [7]
Young people who begin drinking before age 15 are four times more likely to develop alcohol dependence than those who begin drinking at age 21. [8]
More than 67% of young people who start drinking before the age of 15 will try an illicit drug. Children who drink are 7.5 times more likely to use any illicit drug, more than 22 times more likely to use marijuana, and 50 times more likely to use cocaine than children who never drank. [91
Teens under 15 who have ever consumed alcohol are twice as likely to have sex as those who have not. Nearly 4 in 10 (39%) sexually active teens who use alcohol have had sexual intercourse with four or more individuals. [10]
Underage drinking costs Americans nearly $53 billion annually. If this cost were shared equally by each congressional district, the amount would total more than $120 million per district. [11]
Researchers estimate that alcohol use is implicated in one to two-thirds of sexual assault and acquaintance or "date" rape cases among teens and college students. [12]
In 1999, 21% of 15- to 20-year-old drivers who were killed in crashes were intoxicated. [13]
Here's an article that I found on the internet about how alcohol abuse affects the family.
Link: http://addictionrecoverybasics.com/how-alcohol-abuse-affects-family/
How Alcohol Abuse Affects Family
by Bill Urell on
The effects of alcohol abuse roll over the family like waves crashing on the shore.
When someone experiences alcohol problems, the negative effects of drinking cost dearly, not only the drinker, but also on their partner and other family members.
Often alcohol abusers have a blind spot when it comes to the ravaging effects it can have on loved ones. Recent data suggest that approximately one child in every four (28.6%) in the United States is exposed to alcohol abuse or alcohol dependence in the family.
One of the clearest demonstrations of how alcohol use negatively impacts the family is the widely documented association between alcohol use and interpersonal violence. Family problems that are likely to co-occur with alcohol problems include:
1.Violence – slapping, hitting, smashing and throwing objects.
2. Marital conflict – arguments, the silent treatment, growing apart.
3. Infidelity - finding someone who ‘understands’, prostitution, internet sex.
4. Jealousy - of friends, your partner or the
5. Economic insecurity – loss of job, poor financial decisions, easting money
6. Divorce – isolation
7. Fetal alcohol effect – drinking when pregnant, brain damage to the baby.
Drinking problems may negatively alter marital and family functioning, but there also is evidence that they can increase as a consequence of marital and family problems. Therefore drinking and family functioning are strongly and reciprocally linked. Drinking increases family problems, as family problems increase, drinking increases.
A vicious cycle is formed. It is no surprise that alcohol problems are very common in couples that seek out marital therapy. And, relationship problems are common in drinkers who present for alcohol treatment
Here some more articles about alcohol abuse from around the web.
Prenatal Drinking, Environmental Enrichment: Effects On … – Prenatal alcohol exposure may be particularly destructive for neurotrophins, a family of peptides that influence the growth, development and functional plasticity of the fetal brain. A new rodent study of alcohol’s effects on three key …
Growing Up Alcoholic: The Effects of Alcohol Abuse on Children – Alcohol addiction is a very dangerous disease that not only affects the individual, but also has a direct affect on those family members who are around the addict. A great deal of parents who are dealing with stressors such as their …
The Effects Of Alcohol Consumption On Our Society (mens health care) – Alcohol is metabolized in the liver by enzymes, however, the liver can only metabolize a small amount of alcohol at a time, leaving the excess alcohol to circulate throughout the body. The intensity of the effect of alcohol on the body …
The Effects Of Alcohol In The Body – Don’t let alcoholism get to this point. Ethyl alcohol has industrial properties. The ethyl alcohol which is used in alcoholic beverages is heavily taxed. Ethyl alcohol is one of a family of alcohols, which include methyl alcohol, …
2009-11-20
A weekend to look forward to?
Alrighty.
So I haven't unpacked the slightest thing last night. I did of course rip open a few garbage bags and rummaged through them to find my uniform for today and my jammies for last night - and a towel of course.
It's a good thing all my makeup and other accessories were more accessible through my carrying case, which to my relief, wasn't surrounded by the mess I had created last night.
Tonight I won't be home. Actually, I think I am stopping off at home to make up an overnight bag and change from my uniform to go and stay at mom's for the night. Someone's gotta stay with her - Tash is leaving for the night to some sleepover at her friend's place. So tonight, it'll just be me and mom.
I can't say I'm not looking forward to it, I am really looking forward to spending time with my mother. It's been a while. But I am not looking forward to the large amounts of lost sleep I will be dealing with. That's something I am not looking forward to.
I guess I already have my Saturday planned out.
1. Say goodbye to mom once Tash comes back.
2. Take the bus back home.
3. Take a nap. (I have to get some of the hours of lost sleep back!)
4. Go through the pile of mess that I call everything I own.
5. Make my bedroom look like a bedroom and not a storage facility.
Not kidding about that last part. My bedroom looks more like a storage facility than anything - there are just garbage bags and boxes strewn all over the floor and other areas, and I have yet to get a dresser. Hm.
Which reminds me. I have to go and borrow one of Uncle Dan's xbox games. Kat (my roommate) has an xbox that she hardly uses, and I wanna see if I'll be able to play it. It's the only way I am going to get out of my boredom after completely re-inventing my bedroom.
I'll have to do something around there. Can't spend my nights and weekends not doing anything. Especially nights. I can never get a decent rest anyway.
So I haven't unpacked the slightest thing last night. I did of course rip open a few garbage bags and rummaged through them to find my uniform for today and my jammies for last night - and a towel of course.
It's a good thing all my makeup and other accessories were more accessible through my carrying case, which to my relief, wasn't surrounded by the mess I had created last night.
Tonight I won't be home. Actually, I think I am stopping off at home to make up an overnight bag and change from my uniform to go and stay at mom's for the night. Someone's gotta stay with her - Tash is leaving for the night to some sleepover at her friend's place. So tonight, it'll just be me and mom.
I can't say I'm not looking forward to it, I am really looking forward to spending time with my mother. It's been a while. But I am not looking forward to the large amounts of lost sleep I will be dealing with. That's something I am not looking forward to.
I guess I already have my Saturday planned out.
1. Say goodbye to mom once Tash comes back.
2. Take the bus back home.
3. Take a nap. (I have to get some of the hours of lost sleep back!)
4. Go through the pile of mess that I call everything I own.
5. Make my bedroom look like a bedroom and not a storage facility.
Not kidding about that last part. My bedroom looks more like a storage facility than anything - there are just garbage bags and boxes strewn all over the floor and other areas, and I have yet to get a dresser. Hm.
Which reminds me. I have to go and borrow one of Uncle Dan's xbox games. Kat (my roommate) has an xbox that she hardly uses, and I wanna see if I'll be able to play it. It's the only way I am going to get out of my boredom after completely re-inventing my bedroom.
I'll have to do something around there. Can't spend my nights and weekends not doing anything. Especially nights. I can never get a decent rest anyway.
A little saying...
I moved again.
Yes me, and yes again.
No, I know you're not surprised and you shouldn't be either.
What I`m surprised is that I moved after 2 months, and not 3; as per usual. Huh.
Yes me, and yes again.
No, I know you're not surprised and you shouldn't be either.
What I`m surprised is that I moved after 2 months, and not 3; as per usual. Huh.
2009-11-17
You know you're in Ontario When...
You Know You’re From Ontario When…
"Vacation" means going to Barrie for the weekend.
You know several people who have hit deer with their cars more than once.
You often switch from "heat" to "A/C" in the same day.
You use a down comforter in the summer.
You think of the major food groups as deer meat, fish, and berries.
There are 7 empty cars running in the parking lot at the Canadian Tire store at any given time.
Your provincial capital calls in the army to help clean up after a snow storm.
Your $400,000 Toronto home is actually a dump
You, and you, alone decide who will win the federal election
You’re in the only province with hard-core American-style crime
MuchMusic’s Speaker’s Corner - rant and rave on national TV for a dollar
Baseball fans park on your front lawn and pee on the side of your house
You know there’s no such thing as an Ontario Seperatist
Lots of tourists come to Toronto because they mistakenly believe it’s a cool city
You have enough French vocabulary to get by some of the day in Ottawa without them thinking that you’re a completly incapable American.
You find -40C a little chilly.
You voted Liberal in the last election.
You actually get these jokes and pass them on to other friends from Ontario.
I got this in an email, and decided to share it.If you consider it a sport to gather your food by drilling through 36 inches of ice and sitting there all day hoping that the food will swim by, you might live in Ontario. If you're proud that your region makes the national news 96 nights each year because Wawa is the coldest spot in the nation, you might live in Ontario. If your local Dairy Queen is closed from September through May, you might live in Ontario. If you instinctively walk like a penguin for six months out of the year, you might live in Ontario. If your dad's suntan stops at a line curving around the middle of his forehead, you might live in Ontario. If you have worn shorts and a parka at the same time, you might live in Ontario. If you have had a lengthy telephone conversation with someone who dialed a wrong number, you might live in Ontario. ********************************************************************* YOU KNOW YOU ARE A TRUE Ontarian: 1. "Vacation" means going South past London for the weekend.
2. You measure distance in hours.
3. You know several people who have hit a deer more than once.
4. You often switch from "heat" to "A/C" in the same day and back again.
5. You can drive 65 mph through 2 feet of snow during a raging blizzard, without flinching.
6. You design your kid's Halloween costume to fit over a snowsuit.
7. Driving is better in the winter because the potholes are filled with snow.
8. You know all 4 seasons: almost winter, winter, still winter, and road construction.
9. Your idea of creative landscaping is a statue of a Deer next to your blue spruce.
10. Down South to you means Toronto.
11. Your 1st of July picnic was moved indoors due to frost.
12. You have more miles on your snow blower than your car.
13. You find 0 degrees "a little chilly."
14. You actually understand these jokes, and you forward them to all your friends in Ontario
"Vacation" means going to Barrie for the weekend.
You know several people who have hit deer with their cars more than once.
You often switch from "heat" to "A/C" in the same day.
You use a down comforter in the summer.
You think of the major food groups as deer meat, fish, and berries.
There are 7 empty cars running in the parking lot at the Canadian Tire store at any given time.
Your provincial capital calls in the army to help clean up after a snow storm.
Your $400,000 Toronto home is actually a dump
You, and you, alone decide who will win the federal election
You’re in the only province with hard-core American-style crime
MuchMusic’s Speaker’s Corner - rant and rave on national TV for a dollar
Baseball fans park on your front lawn and pee on the side of your house
You know there’s no such thing as an Ontario Seperatist
Lots of tourists come to Toronto because they mistakenly believe it’s a cool city
You have enough French vocabulary to get by some of the day in Ottawa without them thinking that you’re a completly incapable American.
You find -40C a little chilly.
You voted Liberal in the last election.
You actually get these jokes and pass them on to other friends from Ontario.
I got this in an email, and decided to share it.If you consider it a sport to gather your food by drilling through 36 inches of ice and sitting there all day hoping that the food will swim by, you might live in Ontario. If you're proud that your region makes the national news 96 nights each year because Wawa is the coldest spot in the nation, you might live in Ontario. If your local Dairy Queen is closed from September through May, you might live in Ontario. If you instinctively walk like a penguin for six months out of the year, you might live in Ontario. If your dad's suntan stops at a line curving around the middle of his forehead, you might live in Ontario. If you have worn shorts and a parka at the same time, you might live in Ontario. If you have had a lengthy telephone conversation with someone who dialed a wrong number, you might live in Ontario. ********************************************************************* YOU KNOW YOU ARE A TRUE Ontarian: 1. "Vacation" means going South past London for the weekend.
2. You measure distance in hours.
3. You know several people who have hit a deer more than once.
4. You often switch from "heat" to "A/C" in the same day and back again.
5. You can drive 65 mph through 2 feet of snow during a raging blizzard, without flinching.
6. You design your kid's Halloween costume to fit over a snowsuit.
7. Driving is better in the winter because the potholes are filled with snow.
8. You know all 4 seasons: almost winter, winter, still winter, and road construction.
9. Your idea of creative landscaping is a statue of a Deer next to your blue spruce.
10. Down South to you means Toronto.
11. Your 1st of July picnic was moved indoors due to frost.
12. You have more miles on your snow blower than your car.
13. You find 0 degrees "a little chilly."
14. You actually understand these jokes, and you forward them to all your friends in Ontario
2009-11-10
....
Contrary to popular belief... I did not have a good weekend.
It is now Tuesday, and if I could go back to bed right now, I most likely would go, and stay there for an entire week.
I have to go to the clinic to get something to calm myself down, cause my behaviour is apparently getting a little ridiculous.
They have me convinced that I have bipolar disorder, but I'm not so sure.
I know that I have concentration issues, and I find it increasingly difficult to keep on task, but..
Now, I forgot what I was going to say. Forget this post. Ugh. I can't think anymore.
It is now Tuesday, and if I could go back to bed right now, I most likely would go, and stay there for an entire week.
I have to go to the clinic to get something to calm myself down, cause my behaviour is apparently getting a little ridiculous.
They have me convinced that I have bipolar disorder, but I'm not so sure.
I know that I have concentration issues, and I find it increasingly difficult to keep on task, but..
Now, I forgot what I was going to say. Forget this post. Ugh. I can't think anymore.
2009-11-06
Just thought I would share...
So, I just thought I would share this..
I keep asking for a laptop because it's something I have been wanting for an extremely long time now, right? So, on facebook, I was all like:
My status: Laptop?
My uncle: Selfish.. can't you just do anything without expecting something in return?
Bryan (my friend): Ask the rest of the world that question. See what answer you get.
-I would have said something like: "You do anything and you expect the world to bow at your feet-
What I wasn't expecting, was my father's answer(who just randomly replied to my status) :<
Dad: My answer would be Christmas.
FIRST OF ALL!
I would never get a laptop for Christmas, it's not like anyone is willing to buy me one, even though things are going great in school, and not to mention, I am overly stressed because I have to find time to stay at school to complete assignments on time, and I work my best during the night, and I am not allowed to be on the computer past 11, and it's not like I have more than a half hour to do my homework. Ugh.
I keep asking for a laptop because it's something I have been wanting for an extremely long time now, right? So, on facebook, I was all like:
My status: Laptop?
My uncle: Selfish.. can't you just do anything without expecting something in return?
Bryan (my friend): Ask the rest of the world that question. See what answer you get.
-I would have said something like: "You do anything and you expect the world to bow at your feet-
What I wasn't expecting, was my father's answer(who just randomly replied to my status) :<
Dad: My answer would be Christmas.
FIRST OF ALL!
I would never get a laptop for Christmas, it's not like anyone is willing to buy me one, even though things are going great in school, and not to mention, I am overly stressed because I have to find time to stay at school to complete assignments on time, and I work my best during the night, and I am not allowed to be on the computer past 11, and it's not like I have more than a half hour to do my homework. Ugh.
TGIF
Thank God It's Friday.
This is sooo true.
I really am glad it's friday today.
So, this morning, like usual I had to be late for school, once again. Woke up at 8, the time I’m supposed to be leaving for school at. Not really all that troubling, considering I knew that in my first class, all we would be doing is reading comics and then trying to make a comic that resembles married life, or something of the sort.
Which is all okay with me, I don’t mind reading comics. It’s the drawing part that bothered me, because I never really knew how to draw in the first place. I can’t draw worth anything, but my teacher was all like, “I am not evaluating your drawing skills, just the message that comes out of the comic itself.” I was like, “Okay, but what if the message isn’t clear because the drawing is so messed-up?” She didn’t say a word, but I think she might have said something along the lines of: “Just try your best, and see what happens.”
So I didn’t end up at school until around 9:30, meaning that my first class teacher was already well into her class, and she was, when I got there. Truth be told, I only had time to read the newspaper comics before the bell rang and we had to leave. Which is alright with me, because you know… my artistic talents… :P
Let’s just say, thank god for Friday. Although, I know it’s not going to get any better throughout the weekend, because unlike everyone else, I always have something I have to do, and I never get to sleep as much as I really want to. There’s always someone at my door, there’s always someone who says I have to do this, and do that, and “Can you do me favors?” that it really drives you crazy. No wonder I’m always so exhausted. I’m so sleep deprived I don’t know what to do with myself anymore.
If you’re wondering about my love life, it’s non-existant. And I’m kind of glad for that, because I really don’t need a love life right now, with all the chaos that goes on. Plus, once I do hook up with someone, it’s just drama from then on and it’s just something that’s really not worth the work.
Brandon asked me how come I don’t have a boyfriend. I told him I didn’t know, but I know damn well why. It’s not that I’m not attractive, and it’s not because I don’t have personality, because I am attractive and I’ve been told I have a great personality and that I’m fun to be around and everyone’s mood brightens up when they are around me. I don’t have a boyfriend because there’s always something I have to do. I can’t have a boyfriend, because we would never hang out, never be with each other. Plus, things are so much easier to deal with single. I already have to deal with the nonsense of family and school and home.. which isn’t the same thing as family, by far not the same thing, that there’s just too much to do, and my brain and my heart can’t handle worrying about another person that’s supposed to be important to me and an important aspect in my life.
That’s why.
I’m excited to get my note for my 45 minute presentation yesterday afternoon. I like what I did and I’m so excited to see what my note is.
I still have to wait quite a while for it too, which bugs me a little. I know I did a good job, but sometimes when I think I did a good job, I am usually quite wrong.
I'm so bored right now, I think I might post something else soon.
This is sooo true.
I really am glad it's friday today.
So, this morning, like usual I had to be late for school, once again. Woke up at 8, the time I’m supposed to be leaving for school at. Not really all that troubling, considering I knew that in my first class, all we would be doing is reading comics and then trying to make a comic that resembles married life, or something of the sort.
Which is all okay with me, I don’t mind reading comics. It’s the drawing part that bothered me, because I never really knew how to draw in the first place. I can’t draw worth anything, but my teacher was all like, “I am not evaluating your drawing skills, just the message that comes out of the comic itself.” I was like, “Okay, but what if the message isn’t clear because the drawing is so messed-up?” She didn’t say a word, but I think she might have said something along the lines of: “Just try your best, and see what happens.”
So I didn’t end up at school until around 9:30, meaning that my first class teacher was already well into her class, and she was, when I got there. Truth be told, I only had time to read the newspaper comics before the bell rang and we had to leave. Which is alright with me, because you know… my artistic talents… :P
Let’s just say, thank god for Friday. Although, I know it’s not going to get any better throughout the weekend, because unlike everyone else, I always have something I have to do, and I never get to sleep as much as I really want to. There’s always someone at my door, there’s always someone who says I have to do this, and do that, and “Can you do me favors?” that it really drives you crazy. No wonder I’m always so exhausted. I’m so sleep deprived I don’t know what to do with myself anymore.
If you’re wondering about my love life, it’s non-existant. And I’m kind of glad for that, because I really don’t need a love life right now, with all the chaos that goes on. Plus, once I do hook up with someone, it’s just drama from then on and it’s just something that’s really not worth the work.
Brandon asked me how come I don’t have a boyfriend. I told him I didn’t know, but I know damn well why. It’s not that I’m not attractive, and it’s not because I don’t have personality, because I am attractive and I’ve been told I have a great personality and that I’m fun to be around and everyone’s mood brightens up when they are around me. I don’t have a boyfriend because there’s always something I have to do. I can’t have a boyfriend, because we would never hang out, never be with each other. Plus, things are so much easier to deal with single. I already have to deal with the nonsense of family and school and home.. which isn’t the same thing as family, by far not the same thing, that there’s just too much to do, and my brain and my heart can’t handle worrying about another person that’s supposed to be important to me and an important aspect in my life.
That’s why.
I’m excited to get my note for my 45 minute presentation yesterday afternoon. I like what I did and I’m so excited to see what my note is.
I still have to wait quite a while for it too, which bugs me a little. I know I did a good job, but sometimes when I think I did a good job, I am usually quite wrong.
I'm so bored right now, I think I might post something else soon.
2009-11-05
So, I was almost late for school, once again...
Staff always wants us to be clean all the time.
And I mean, it's great, Hygiene is great. To be clean is great.
But our bedrooms is our sanctuary and we aren't allowed one thing out of place.
Now I think this is going mildly overboard considering that I can't necessarily function without a little bit of chaos going around in my bedroom. I could understand if I was in an apartment and my bedroom only consisted of a bed, a dresser and a night stand, but the bedroom is all I got where I live, and a little bit of chaos never really hurt anyone, you know.
Plus, it's not like I can find anything in a room that looks so sanitarily perfect. I don't think any young adult can.
I feel like I'm stuck on a really boring reality show, like somehow there's a bunch of cameras and like, people are watching me on the big screen or something.
So I was late this morning because I ended up having to clean up my room after looking frantically for my uniform, because there's not enough room to be clean and organised.. I don't have a closet, i have a storage thing, so it's hard to find things easily. This is why I wanted a room with a closet. What kind of girl doesn't have a closet in her room, I mean, honestly. These things are essential!
And I mean, it's great, Hygiene is great. To be clean is great.
But our bedrooms is our sanctuary and we aren't allowed one thing out of place.
Now I think this is going mildly overboard considering that I can't necessarily function without a little bit of chaos going around in my bedroom. I could understand if I was in an apartment and my bedroom only consisted of a bed, a dresser and a night stand, but the bedroom is all I got where I live, and a little bit of chaos never really hurt anyone, you know.
Plus, it's not like I can find anything in a room that looks so sanitarily perfect. I don't think any young adult can.
I feel like I'm stuck on a really boring reality show, like somehow there's a bunch of cameras and like, people are watching me on the big screen or something.
So I was late this morning because I ended up having to clean up my room after looking frantically for my uniform, because there's not enough room to be clean and organised.. I don't have a closet, i have a storage thing, so it's hard to find things easily. This is why I wanted a room with a closet. What kind of girl doesn't have a closet in her room, I mean, honestly. These things are essential!
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